10 feet Ball point Drawings!!!!

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Not this tide.
“When d’you think that he’ll come back?”
Not with this wind blowing, and this tide.
“Has any one else had word of him?”
Not this tide.
For what is sunk will hardly swim,
Not with this wind blowing, and this tide.

“Oh, dear, what comfort can I find?”
None this tide,
Nor any tide,
Except he did not shame his kind—
Not even with that wind blowing, and that tide.

Then hold your head up all the more,
This tide,
And every tide;
Because he was the son you bore,
And gave to that wind blowing and that tide!

Rudyard Kipling

I’ve been experiencing some inner turmoil recently i guess. Andy, my tutor at Ravensbourne, called in the February Blues… but if that’s the case then the last 3 years have culminated into one very long February. I am not foolish enough to consider any aspect of my life awful, on the contrary everything i have i am truly blessed to have.

But maybe it’s more to do with dreaming. I’ve always been an advocate that there’s no harm in dreaming, for if you dream big, even if they don’t come true, the steps you have taken in the pursuit of these dreams ensures you have achieved great things anyway. And this is true. But what are dreams if nothing but the things which spawn hope? And again, i’ve always been a strong advocate of hope… more so than i ever realised.

Recently i’ve felt i’ve been a lesser person than i used to be because i just don’t have the mental strength i once had to believe in my greatest dream. And maybe the fact i can’t means that i’ll have to face reality, where in lies the problem. I’ve been working extremely hard recently on various projects which have nothing to do with uni, but because they were always part of the dream… and now they’re coming to an end i find myself caught between a rock and a hard place because this is judgement time if you will, these next few months will determine if the dream i held in my heart for so long, and have desired so greatly, was all a farce. Indeed it will show whether there is danger in dreaming or whether my belief all along was right. True, from my aforementioned theories about dreaming, i should believe that the even if it doesn’t come true that this dream can still happen and in chasing these dreams i should have taken positive steps even if they’re not the steps i wanted to take.

 But does that all my hope is invested in this one idea? Is there no silver lining to this cloud? Well until about 3 minutes ago i couldn’t find one, until it hit me that i’ve felt like a lesser person for so long, that i’ve missed many ways in which i have grown and indeed traits which have continued… and here we come back to hope.

I wrote this blurb on a site in the section about me:

i’m an 19 year old male, for whom design is not a vocation or a skill but an extension of self. I’d even go as far as to say that it’s a form of therapy.For me it is about expressing myself when words are hard to come by, and therefore what you often see is the naked truth. Obviously, the boundaries between design and art are trying to establish themselves apart, however for me i think this is a grave mistake and that there is room and scope for self expression and fulfilling of the clients needs. In essense, it’s whether you classify Life as design or art or both?

Music is a great influence on my work and i try to capture the feelings produced visually, and thus i feel my work can be described as Aesthetic feeling, or at least attempted aesthetic feeling.

Ultimately i think if there’s anything to remember it’s this:

“To achieve greatness in the world, one must first achieve greatness in oneself. Only by doing the latter, can one hope to do the former”

-Myself, Written in my blog (http://so-design.org/blog)

Peace,

-Rishi

Inspirations

Love,Life,Music

What surprised me was in all that, i focussed on music, love and hope but i forgot perhaps the main thing which has helped me in the last few months… Silence. Because in the silence, i’m left with my thoughts and the hope that is inside of me. So in this description of me, i have omitted the greatest detail of all:

For me Design is ultimately about Hope. Not only the hopes of others, for i would love to inspire people and to make them believe again, but my own. Because whilst the future is uncertain, and for a person who has the greatest dream of all this is a scary fact for i may end up with nothing and i could not bare it if that was the case, my design is a way for me to pour my hope-filled heart and soul onto the screen or page, and so if worse comes to worse than at least some part of me had found the happiness i dream of in my designs.

I finally realised why the outcome of these projects had meant so much to me, it’s because i’m not ready to stop believing in this dream, and god knows circumstances in the last 3 years have tried.

So today i realised, that i’ll never give up on that dream, and so no matter how weak i may feel, that is all the strength i’ll need.

-Rishi

http://museumofmodernfiction.wordpress.com/2008/02/10/adams-apple/

 Lol Thanks Rebecca! Great find! 

“Hope is a good thing, maybe the best thing, and no good thing ever dies”

-Andy, “Shawshank Redemption” by Stephen King